In my opinion, for you, this is just a tool in what should be a full toolbox designed to help you stay clean. If in your mind it is unacceptable to ever drink again, you have to fill that box with people and tools for you to stay clean. If the box is full, taking one tool out won't empty it. However, if the only thing in your box is this one thing, and it's gone, your box will be empty.
So, what else can you add to your life to lean on to stay clean and sober. Coming here to SR is certainly a tool. Maybe you need a sobriety coach or counselor. AA or another type of face to face group. Your doctor. Meditation therapy, Reiki, whatever helps your mind set. Honesty, so these support people can help you as best as possible.
Above all else, it is going to be how hard you are willing to fight for it. You have it in you, that is obvious. It is now just going to be setting your mind in a place that YOU WILL DO THIS, with or without a crutch. And it will be lots easier with a full toolbox.
I hope this makes sense.
I believe in you.