Perhaps it is time to consider a plan for permanent sobriety. Personally I found remembering the last disaster was not effective for long. I seemed to forget so easily, and revert to old habits.
Looking at your own experience it seems that sobriety was great for you as long as everything was going well. But when life threw you some problems, which it is guranteed to do again, you instantly reverted to your old solution. Perhaps it is time to lock in a new soltuion so that when bad things happen, you can handle them without the need to pick up.