Young Alcoholic
Hey guys,
I was hoping to find support online, as I have no support from my family or friends. Last night seemed to be the tipping point: I went out to bars by myself, and I have no idea how I got home. Looking back at my cell phone, I want to vomit. The only solution to my anxiety and general lassitude is EtOH and benzodiazepines. I've woken up in the emergency room, random people's houses, or my own house soaked in my own urine not knowing how I returned to my house.
I want to get clean, but I'm embarrassed being this young and essentially abusing alcohol. I tried AA once, but I live in the deep south, and I'm an atheist. I'm also a senior medical student who works in the ED of all places.
I also live with my parents, and we generally don't talk. To be honest I just want someone with whom to talk, someone that has been through the depravity which is alcohol abuse. I feel so alone.