He promised me the world and now I feel that everything was a lie. I'm tired and broken. He didn't lie to me. He actually came to me and admitted what he had done and seemed very remorseful, but I don't know what is real and what isn't at this point.
I am glad you found us and hope you will take a good read around, especially the sticky threads at the top of this forum, you will see what your life may become if you stay with a man who is addicted to drugs.
Trust your instincts. What you feel is a very bad relationship because of the drugs, is. When you feel that your life will not unfold with the "happy ever after" you had dreamed of, it will, as long as he is actively addicted to drugs.
Sadly, what an active addict says and what they do are often two different actions. Their intentions may be good, they may sound sincere, but in the end the drugs will win every time unless and until they find a better path and nothing you say or do will lead him there, only he can do that and it doesn't sound like he's ready. If our love could save an addict, not one of us would be here.
If you were my daughter I would suggest stepping back for a while and catching your breath and finding your balance. I wouldn't make wedding plans or any future plans until you see what his actions tell you...over a long period of time.
Stick around, read here for a while and let us know how this unfolds...we understand and we care.
Hugs