Sorry for your loss Frick and thank you for your kind words .
I actually enjoy mowing the lawn ( cutting the grass we say in Scotland ,same thing ) I always seem to come up with an idea of some sort . My goodness I don't forget where I was 9 days ago and want to stay mindful that the summer will come and go so I have plans to get to SMART meetings , just trying to work out times and locations around my shifts .
I remember soon after joining here about 7 months ago I said a lot about plans but I made a potentially fatal mistake by leaving here and forgetting how bad I was , thought I was able to take a couple of drinks and so I did once or twice but as you all know the fire has been ignited and smoulders only for so long until its an inferno ,those couple of beers turned into a bottle of vodka every day for 6 days , I still feel the embarrassment and still get paranoid about that 6 days , who saw me etc but it's fading . I cant ever ever do this again and thinking about a previous post from I think FreeOwl "I don't WANT to ever do it again .
I'll be 60 in September so I want to be well then and beyond .