Lost and despite
Hi. I'm new.. here's my story. I ended up finding my high school crush. He was in recovery when we started dating and know very little about addiction. His drug of choice was heroin... He relapsed two days ago, but on vyvanne... I'm so lost and confused. He promised me the world and now I feel that everything was a lie. I'm tired and broken. He didn't lie to me. He actually came to me and admitted what he had done and seemed very remorseful, but I don't know what is real and what isn't at this point. We were planning a wedding and trying to start a family... I feel blindsided and utterly betrayed. I'm afraid I will never look at him the same again. Can he even love me? Is it possible? Is what he professes just an illusion? I'm so weak and despite right now. Please God, tell me what to do! Do I stay or do I go? Once the trust is gone, what's it all worth? I loved him so much and trusted him with all that I am.