Thanks guys.
I've gotten enough sleep to get rid of the little square impressions in my forehead from passing out on my keyboard.
I WAS rambling!
FBL,
I say a lot the sentence that applies here for me. I wrote early in my recovery: Life doesn't get any better with sobriety, we do.
Now that I'm rested a bit I can say what I meant to say through my one liners I wrote here:
"Stay strong it gets much better as you go. The only way I have found in life not to be vulnerable is to hide in a bottle. Being vulnerable gets easier. And then becomes being open. There is a difference."
As I was typing that, It just blew up again and we need to do the restraining order. Gotta go. All will be well. I am sad for the broken people that won't acknowledge their need to stop blaming others for their own messes.
Thanks all!