Aiko. You were right to quit your job. That was a step in the right direction as I have said all along. But you added that "And after over did pills, I stole one.of.one office etc... so told off.......". This concerns me because it indicates that you are still ready to go behind your doctor's back despite your agreement with him, to get pills." This is most unfortunate and casts doubt on whether you really have a plan for recovery and are committed to it. If you do not have a plan and are not committed you could well lose your personal freedom for a much longer time than a rehab would take. Think about this, Aiko. The choice is yours. Entirely yours. With every good wish that you do what's best for yourself. Your true self.
Bill