I just know that I have dealt with so many things entirely on my own in life from such a young, young age and it has broken me down as a person. Going through all things alone does not make you stronger, it breaks you down. I mean I can't even stand to be around other people because I see the way they are coddled and cared for in comparison to me and I have nothing. Zero. Zilch. And I am so in the habit of never having any kind of support in my life that it just became normal and then I fault myself for being angry and unhappy when in fact I have had a lonely, sad and s****y life that would make anyone unhappy, not just me.