The chronic pain may be intensified due to the situation you are in. Try to focus and recognize this fact. Being scared is partly due to feeling insecure about your strentghs. There are churches and agencies out there to help. Try a mental health clinic and see if you qualify for childrens services. Not knowing all the facts I can not do much for you other then pray. Many states have funding and free services. A mental health agency has many resources to pull from. Being fearful often opens the door to depression. Spend time brainstorming and journaling about things you can change and let you fears be known. When you write them down they look smaller. Take one fear at a time and break it down instead of trying to figure them all out at once. Being a Social Worker, I wish I was there to visit with you and give the hope that is really there. It is just hard for you to see it through tear filled eyes.