I used to fantasise about english country pubs in summer in the garden outside drinking beer .
I never actually got it together enough in my drinking career to actually do that , to far away when i couldn't drive .
During the early months of my sobriety the idea was floating about in my head tho' .
I imagined doing the exact same thing but with a lemonade , it held no appeal .. therefore i knew it was my addiction spinning me a story not reality .
You can go on your porch , smoke , you can have iced tea , you can have english style tea from a porcelain tea pot and cup, cream cakes , scones and jam . Do some oil painting or water colour painting as you sit , read a great book , listen to the radio .
Break the alcohol ritual , form a new healthy habit . Don't pine after what you can't have because thats what causes misery . Focus on what great new things you can do
Take care,
m