All I know is that I cannot drink alcohol in a "controlled" manner. I tried doing that from 1975 to 1988, Had several relapses and finally a 28 day rehab. Haven't had a drink since and don't need it, don't crave it, don't really think about it, If I'm feeling anxious I go to my doctor and he gives me something temporarily. Also gives me an antidepressant on a long term basis. It's not addictive. After all those years my physiology and neurology must have changed so that alcohol is a distant memory. Nonetheless I'm careful not to let the AV out of its cage. It's in there and will always be in there. Like many (maybe like all) folks I was born with it and I'll die with it. Comes with the territory. Self medication hasn't worked. Won't ever work.
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