Welcome! You can ALWAYS find support and someone to talk to here.
The hardest mental part of finding recovery is deciding that enough is enough and to make the decision to stop and never go back there.
Soon you will be done with the physical aspects, counseling with a substance abuse counselor might be a really good move to make at this point in your recovery.
You never have to feel like this EVER again as long as you continue to move forward and never look back!