Dear Friend (((Equus)))
I so wanted to post on this thread, it’s taken me some time to bring myself to do it.
You are one hell of a lady and, knowing what it’s taken to bring you to this point; I want you to know that I admire you for your decision. I know that you have thought long and hard about the role you play in D’s circumstances, always seeking the best for him and trying to balance that with your own needs.
I also read your post with a feeling of unease. Why?
Because I had a similar conversation the night before P went into Rehab while he was still on the alcohol; I will be having the same conversation with him the day he gets out, when he is alcohol free.
The uneasy feeling is because I know I need to be strong in my resolve like you; I know that I need to work on that.
Be well and good luck.