We're here to listen, Kaily. We're people too, believe it or not.
I'm sure there are AA or other recovery meetings going on all day long where you live. Those are full of people just like you and me, people who understand that awful life of wanting to stop drinking but not feeling like you can.
I was/am a drinker just like you. It's now been 50 days without a drink for me. What worked for me was asking for help here when I needed it, helping others here when I could even if it was just to say "hello" or "I'm listening" to someone new, and realizing that it's the first drink that gets me drunk. As long as I don't take the first one no matter what, I don't have to worry about the second or third or tenth one that will surely follow for drinkers like us.
Wishing you the best today! You did the right thing asking for help.