getting sober was THE hardest thing i have EVER done in my life- way harder than the 3+ year battle i had with cancer starting 13 months into recovery.
staying sober has been easy.
it was worth the fight- every one day at a time, taking fighting the craving, compulsion, and obsession down to one second at a time a LOT, the frustrations learning to live life on lifes terms, learn about myself, and how to be a responsable, productive member of society..........
EVERY second was worth it.
you can get sober,too and never have to feel this way again.
if you want to and are willing to put in the footwork