Great Progess Aiko! Do keep it up! Now that you've got yourself on an upward path, make sure not to take anything for granted. It takes quite awhile for your physiology and neurology to change back to something more normal. Your AV sits there meanwhile trying to induce a slip or relapse.
You wrote, "Am on my mob. I can not put Hearts!!!!" Am puzzled at the "mob" reference. I thought Marlon Brando (The Godfather) was in Sicily, not Spain. As to "Hearts", is this a bridge bid, "putting" Hearts? I was never good at bridge, or golf, either. If there is anything that will drive a fellow to drink, it's golf. Is this why the Scots have a yen for Scotch whiskey!
Laugh a bit and take care of that dog (we call them "dawgs" down South in the U.S.)
Bill.