No you are not beyond help and you don't have to feel this way anymore if you don't want to.
I could not stop drinking either, no matter how much I tried or wished I could.
I had to get help and I had to do things to help me stay sober. Just stopping drinking without doing anything else didn't work for me. I wasn't willing to make any of those changes until I was hurting bad enough and the fear of being sober wasn't as scary anymore as the fear of keeping on drinking.
You really can do this.