Am I beyond help?
I cannot stop drinking, a lot of the time I drink to "cure" my hangover from the previous day or just to function!
Today I have sinusitis and feel awful, my face is swollen, my nose and throat very sore but still I drink.
I had great plans for today, long walk with my dogs, mulch the garden, do stuff!!!
Instead I wake up feel ill and drink to feel better whilst longing to go out.
I know I should just go but unfortunately life isn't like that and I am a prisoner to my addiction..
Like any addict I manage a few hours work most days to feed my addiction and pay my rent