I am not even 2 weeks sober, and the idea of not being able to look forward to a drink some time in the future is terrifying. So, I am just trying not to think too far ahead. I know that I had several periods of sobriety that were successful and I talked myself into being able to drink again. This time was the hardest thing I have ever done. So hard. So so hard. Luckily I am in a good rehab program and am not trying to white knuckle my way through. Also, chocolate.
Sorry, I know you wish the answer was different.