I'm in my 40's guys. It's just worn me down to have to live with this for so long. It started with my lashes and brows when I was only 13.
The looking awful, the avoiding the hair dresser- I didn't even have a professional hair cut for 15 years. Not one time in my life have I ever just gotten dressed, fixed my hair a little and gone out. Not once. And I couldn't even get past pixie cut length until I was near 40 years old. I basically had a shaved head or menopause style cut my whole life. It's just another thing that is so basic that I never got to have or experience in life.
I was trying to get ready to do a social obligation and I just broke down as soon as I had to look at myself in a mirror. I can't even get dressed and go out. All the pretending it isn't noticeable or covering and hiding it and just forcing myself to act happy despite dying inside is just over. I can't anymore. I've been doing it for decades. I am worn right out 100 percent.