Originally Posted by AdelineRose

In the end you know what you can mentally handle.

I am a recovered heroin addict and I don't inject water or fake heroin because guess what, if I did, I would most likely say "this isn't doing it for me, just one more time"

I saw mentioned above that you are one day sober and already trying to substitute real wine for NA wine. Does that seem healthy or like the actions of someone who truly wants to be sober MORE THAN ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING else is this world?

Also, recovery plans are really helpful and can be the difference between success and relapse. Drinking NA wine or beer seems to be just another way to hold onto your addiction when right now you need to be fighting for your life or it won't happen