I am sorry that you are hurting also and I think that Splendra just said it that we don't always get what we expect, damn it I hate when that happens. That was my problem Friday night at our one year NA anniv. someone from SR at least I though she was going to come to the party and when she didn't show up like I expected I said ****it but I did hang in there and am better today. I know the hurt will go away without covering it up. Hang in there Vic