I'm not quite sure what you are asking me Old soul? I left my marriage - it's over. Not only did I leave my marriage, but I left the province - I left everything behind. I'm in a new town and I when I moved here I didn't know anyone. My immediate family lives 3 days drive away. It's very difficult for a single, mature woman to break into social circles. Married couples don't invite single women to functions. I've joined things. I'm trying online dating - and OMG I don't know how many frogs I will have to go through to find my prince.
Sometimes I find the loneliness absolutely crushing and that's when the thoughts surface.
CF