Stewey, have you tried AA at all? Without outside support I gradually got more and more depressed, anxious, resentful, and ashamed. Once I got 6 months in and my boss had tried sending me for counselling (which didn't help because I couldn't bring myself to talk about what was really bothering me) l finally accepted help from others and got on with the 12-step programme and started finding relief.
Could you tell us what your plan looks like so others can make some suggestions of things that could be added to it that could make a diffrerence?