Originally Posted by
Stewy84 
On the eve of my birthday today why don't I have a beer?
And say what the hell. At the moment I just want to escape I'm pretty lost
Because you know it would not be "a" beer. It would be a LOT of beer and you'd end up back in the same hellhole you were in 18 months ago.
You've learned a lot much better ways to deal with life than by escaping it in these past months. Some days are better than others - why not plan something fun for your bday even if it's just as simple as a movie or something like that? Plenty of options besides making everything worse, right?