sounds like you had a good weekend courage.
It was all very weird. I woke up wanting a drink. Was very stressed and felt in a really bad mood - way way more than I've experienced in years. It was all day, constant. Then it was there and I drank it. I know the cravings would have passed. I've had similar feelings and dealt with them properly. I just wanted to drink but not sure why. Did I want to be 'normal' did I think I was cured, did I just want to blot eveyrthing out.
At the moment of drinking I didn't enjoy it and as I'd eaten a large meal some hours earlier it had no effect. I always drank on an empty stomach for effect. so it was all pretty pointless. as it should be. I know there was no effect due to food not because I' m 'cured' in any way or can handle it.
I'm not going down that road again-too much to lose.