Thank you for your time to respond to me. I appreciate everyone's thoughts. So both me and my wife have been drinking together. I mentioned to her we should go see a grief counselor but it's not something she wants to do. And I can't really force her to do anything that she does not want to do.
For myself I would like to go talk to a professional. I have an overwhelming sense of something else bad that could happen. For example I think everything in the house is going to catch on fire. or the stove is going to blow up.
Could this be part of grieving or my own imagination?