Originally Posted by BlueBlueBird

I have been where you are. I would wake up in the middle of the night almost every night for the past year, regretting once again drinking that bottle of wine or more every night and promising myself the next day I wouldn't. But by 4pm the next day that little voice inside my head talked me into it and by 7pm I was opening that bottle. Went on for months.

When I realized that voice did NOT want what's best for me and was essentially, a fraud, I learned how to want to be sober more than I wanted to drink. I'm only a few days out, and I am far from solid, but each day becomes a little easier.

I listen to podcasts.
I come here.
Every morning I create a plan to work through those things that will come up throughout the day that will make me want to drink.