Here we go again...
It has been quite a while since I posted. My niece, who became addicted to meth in 2004, over the past 12 years committed felonies, spent time in jail, went through rehab twice, got sober, finished paralegal school, got a job with steady employment, moved out.... And then went back to drugs. I thought she had been sober since 2008, now I don't know.
I was with her through all of this because her parents are absent due to their own issues, all the time working on my own recovery as a codependent.
I tell myself she returned to drugs because of her boyfriend, her ADD, her dad getting cancer, etc. but not everyone responds to that by returning to drugs.
I am heartbroken.
She woke me up calling in the middle of the night having a fight with her boyfriend turning physical. I was able to convince her to get out of the place.
I know better than to rescue. I know I can't go through all that again. I am 60 and just don't know if I have it in me.
Very sad right now.