I'm sorry you're having a rough time of it.
When I want to drink I'll come here and read posts, but what really helps me is thinking back to my drinking days.
The following day's remorse, anxiety and regret for having drank over some problem that will take care of itself on its own and the insanity of thinking drinking will some how help.
Believe me, it won't. But drinking, just thinking why not once? Would send me right back to my old ways.
Why not attend an AA meeting, if you're so inclined? Read here of the suffering of the Newcomers and those in recovery. There's a lot of wisdom here.
Drinking never solved anything.
Best to you.