I didn't read the whole thread. But I'd suggest talking to a psychiatrist who specializes in addictions.
Most anti depressants especially seroquil made me not give an f about anything and gave me massive suicidal ideations which always steered me towards booze or suicide even when I was not a heavy drinker.
You should say "this is what I think and feel on this dose, is it possible to titrate up to that dose to slowly adjust to that dosage".
I GET that so much. Get informed and get a good med team on your side. Ditch the booze- hey solid sober and be Uber duber honest with all your Dr's.
Psychs are the best for meds like that not GPs if you are prone to strong reactions as well as being PROACTIVE in how you handle the meds.
Seriously. Most new meds sent me to ER on suicide watch as I was advised. I am not taking chances on mixing fresh sobriety and new meds. Be careful and be honest.