earlier you had posted about wondering if anybody LIKED you and how you felt your posts weren't getting enough ATTENTION....and then oh shucks, sorry, had me a paranoid moment, all is well, have a doc on call 24/7 and upped my meds....
and then suddenly, you are posting that you are drinking again. and blaming it on anything but yourself.
sorry, ain't buying it. if you have the wherewithal to post HERE, AFTER you got beer, you damn well can call your doc and get help. something's fishy here.........