I can certainly relate to your situation. The hardest thing is ending the bender because you know there is a week of misery ahead. my benders usually ended when I simply had no money left.
You know you have to stop the boozing as soon as possible. Lock the doors, ignore the phone calls, binge on TV shows /movies to distract you for a couple days. You can be back to your sober self soon. Work to home, AA meetings if you are involved , and that's it for a while.
You need to stop sometime in order to get some clear thinking again