Upping the ante
It's taking way more dedication then when I had 3 and a half years. Carry a vision God will into all my activities. I go no where until I prayed and meditated for at least an hour in the morning. 100% hopeless apart from Divine help porn gambling resentment fear scimped fourth and fifth step owe I payed a price I cheated death. I'm sane stable and safe. I was in so much bondage. Just two beers and I have a Spiritual death I have died to very large quanitys of alcohol many times . The stakes are high this is life and death. I have peace of mind joy and a sense of purpose. Never went back into my child hood and teenage years in a fourth step I have now a lot of tears holding nothing back on the fifth. I have a lot of amends to make and I'm almost done with them. I want to recover Lord thank you for helping me.