CaveGirl thank you!
I hope you get to CBT... you won't regret it. It is a very practical approach to deal with the present moment, with the cards you have at the moment, trying not to spend so much time in the past or in the far future. Very pragmatic, I was tired of going to other kinds of therapy and keep re-hashing the past over and over without being able to move forward in my daily life...
It is worthy to ask professional opinions, we are all warriors here dealing with very difficult dynamics and dangerous individuals, there is no need to go at it alone....
Just 3 or 4 sessions and I am starting to feel much better, more in control of my life...