Ah dandylion, you have always been so wise.
Thank you for your reply.
It is sad but ah, the sweet smell of freedom and peace.... after being in a rollercoaster.... I am listening to some birds chirping...
I remember in one ocassion when we were fighting, he told me "you are a free spirit !!" as if it was a bad thing
I wanted to answer "oh sorry, let me be a doormat again so you can be happy..."