Originally Posted by
kittycat3 
More than the feeling of being left out or not being able to enjoy a buzz. More than feeling ostracized or unable to attend celebrations or parties. I don't care if I have to decline every party invite for the next year, I will do it if it means I can start living true to myself.
Hell to the yeah. You can do this!
One thing that helped me was realizing that all those things were already true. I
can't enjoy a buzz. I
am left out. There are certain kinds of partying that I cannot do any more, even though I
love to. I can't change that. The only choice I get is whether I want to respond to those moments by drinking and harming/embarassing myself, or abstaining. Kind of like if my friends were all expert skiers... do I choose to follow them, crash into a tree, and get helicoptered out? Or do I just say, "I'll be here with my book, see you after"?
Hope your day at work is going well. You got this!