Ahh, my sweet friend, you are most certainly not alone. I was in that pit of despair just a few short months ago. I really felt I had run out of chances and there was no hope left for me.
I've had to really shake things up a bit this time, and have reached a new level of honesty with myself and those around me. Drinking is no longer an option. It has completely gone off my list of things to do in crisis, in celebration, when I'm happy, anxious or sad...I drank for any reason.
No more.
What are you prepared to do to claim your life back Kitty? Try something you haven't done before to break free of this deadly cycle. I think the more we relapse the harder it is to get back up. You need a new experience...
Love you sweet friend. Come join me on this sober path. I'm 77 days and counting 😊