Originally Posted by Beccybean

Yep. I remember that stuff. And more. Ghastly.

Things can change, and if you can make a plan, and stay sobriety they will change, and when you have some recovery, and have built some confidence in using your sobriety plan, then you will be able to start cleaning away the wreckage of your past.

At the moment all this probably seems quite impossible. I remember thinking (for a long time) that I needed everything sorted out SO I could get sober. It was when I finally conceded that I needed to get sober so that I could, do THEN get everything sorted out that I started making some progress.