I agree with you about balance in your life. Balance is what has sustained me throughout my recovery and I suffer when parts of my life become unbalanced. It sounds like you need to cut back on something, even just a bit, so that you have some time to just be. Drinking, towards the end, exhausted me. I had no energy left for anything. I think you will find that when you stop drinking, you will feel better and be better able to manage your life.