I copied this from Dee a few weeks ago, he is from the "other" side. I think it might put it into perspective of what it is like being an addict.
I used to think my problem was weed, then I thought my problem was alcohol, or shopping, The truth was - I was the problem. I had this void in me I was trying to fill with 'stuff'. The problem was the void was bottomless. I've had better results trying to heal the void.
Hugs my friend. Every time I have contact with my AXH it hurts for days.