Today is day 64.
So I've been feeling pretty lousy lately physically. I'm trying to get to the root cause. And I'd be lying if I'm starting to wonder if I felt this lousy all along but it was simply masked by the increase in drinking. I can't pinpoint when my drinking drastically increased but I'd say it was for the last 6-12 months. I'm wondering this because there is a part of my brain saying "heck if you feel this lousy sober, why not just drink." I won't drink, I know that is not an option. But I am getting kind of tired of feeling so lousy. I'm going to grin and bare it and keep hoping I turn the corner soon or that there's an easy answer from the doc in the cause. I don't have time to feel lousy, darnit 😃
And today I will not drink.