Even if there was some pill or some technique that made it possible for us to remember everything, I doubt that would make us feel better - my guess is most of us would feel massively worse.
As you say some memories are gone forever cos they were never 'kept' in the first place - Under The influence is the book in which this is explained
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ml#post1592251
I think we just have to accept that, and move on. If you feel amends are necessary do what I did - I tried to do good for myself and others, making my life a kind of living amends.
Todays the only day we can do anything about - don't waste it thinking about yesterday and things we can't remember
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