Thank you guys.
I know this isn't going to be easy. But I can't stand what I'm doing to myself anymore.
Dee, you are right. It is and has gotten progressively worse. And if I don't stop now, I'm going to end up in a bad place.
I can tell the depression is getting worse as well.
So I am going to get thru today without drinking no matter what. I need a plan.
I'm starting with a plan just for today so that I do not get myself overwhelmed.
- protein shake (done)
- see chiropractor for neck pain instead of drinking away the pain (appt made)
- take a walk to clear all these thoughts running thru my head
- cook dinner for my family
- go to the recovery meeting tonight
- check into SR
- make a plan for the rest of the week
In between this will be work and getting my truck fixed. I don't know what a good "plan" looks like, but that's it for today.
Thanks everyone for your support.