Welcome, MK. No matter what your experience has been, or your current situation, there is amazing support here for you. Truly great folks here. Hope you stick around. Check out the variety of forums here, and ask questions. You can have a life without the misery of addiction, and the shame and anxiety and misery that come along for the ride. Decide you deserve it, and then go get it! You can do this. YOU.
Best to you.