Thanks, everyone, for the messages and support. I've been away from SR for about 4 1/2 or 5 years, I guess. Wow. A lot has happened in that time. My original sobriety date was Oct. 1, 2008 but that clock got reset more times than I could count. I was sober for 263 days that first go-round, but then I couldn't stay sober for more than 3 or 4 months at a time (sometimes a lot less than that). I was on that roller coaster until June 21, 2013. I honestly don't know how my husband tolerated me through it all. It got pretty ugly sometimes.
I don't drink anymore, but I do still think about it from time to time. When my husband is out of town is when the temptation is highest, but I'm usually ok in the end. I came really close to making a bad choice today but I did the right thing. I'm glad I came back here. I don't really have anyone I can talk to about this, so this group is very valuable.
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