I need help
I'm at the point now where I think having a few (or more) beers is okay. It gets rid of the physical pain, anxiety, and thoughts. But it also comes with my husband being disappointed in me. Not only him but my family. Here I am, drinking, while he is still out earning a living. And I should be with him. It is our business ya know. And it's crazy to think I was feeling horrible today, with anxiety and like I was sick, until I drank a few beers. Now i feel fine. But I don't feel fine, otherwise I wouldn't be here.