Originally Posted by
tigerlily1 
I have come back to read this several times now!! My heart body and soul are screaming NOT THIS but my brain still says BUT!!!! This truly is one of the most painful places to live! I pray soon and very soon I will say with my brain NOT THIS!! This post spoke to me like non other. Thank you!
You know, the indecision for me was the worst place to be. Even though deciding on "not this" and then seeing what came next meant a lot of sucky stuff for some periods of time, the act of deciding, committing and trusting that I could make it, sometimes just 5 minutes at a time, until 5 minutes led to an hour and then a half day and a day and so on... that act of DECIDING relieved 99% of the stress I felt...
I know how hard it is. I spent years in self imposed purgatory of not deciding... At some point the angst of not deciding was worse for me than saying "not this anymore" and jumping into the unfamiliar....
Wishing you whatever you are needing at this time to make choices that are best for you