I'm one of those who has been going it alone. I've been 115 days sober and although it's been hard, it's worth it. Only a few close friends and no family members know I have struggled with alcohol. When asked to go drinking or offered a drink or when people question my not drinking I just say "I'm not much of a drinker" anymore. I'm a very private person with things this personal. I've never been to an AA meeting or anything, but forums like this do offer me some support. Tonight I was feeling extremely lonesome, so I appreciate your post. I know I'm not the only one fighting alone.